Man, has it been hard. It has been oh so hard. Last night, I talked with Laura that I have no clue as to what to do. I feel more cloudy now than when I went in. I know that the LORD responds to fasting. I know that He has been at work. But, I have no idea.
I need to do something about work. I need to generate some leads, but I hate cold calling. There are things in this life that I blow at and dont want to do. That is one. So, I need to come up with some creative ways to help that. Matt Francis said that he thought my proposal was right on, but he has no money. If I want to work for 50% commission, he is happy to do something with me. I think no. I meet with Bill Clapes today. I pray God for favor and a real project.
Or, I need to find a job. I looked online last night and found nada.
I emailed with Kevin Johnson, and he said that funding was tied up. So, only the LORD knows what is going on with that.
I keep asking Him, have I done something wrong? What have I done or need to do? There is no fruit in what I am doing. It is dry as a bone.
So, let’s see what happens. The fast ends at 6pm tonight. I trust that the outcome that He wanted has been achieved, even if I dont see it.