Jack is struggling. I hate it for him. I pray he has encounters with God to restore his heart and hope in the LORD.
Our email exchange after a hard conversation:
First of all, I am grateful for you sharing your heart so openly. Thank you for that. It takes courage.
As to the rest of the stuff, you are absolutely correct. It is time for you to work this out. And, as you do, you should decide on where you are with the LORD. Because hope comes from Him. Disappointment, false expectations and all that negative crap, including staring in the rear view mirror are from the enemy.
I watched the devil put thoughts in your mom’s head and her get stuck on the past. So yea, I don’t want to see things end poorly for you like they did for us. God told me very clearly that she cannot go where I am going. It is because of her choices. This doesn’t mean that God doesnt love her. He does very much. But, she partnered with the wrong thoughts, and it changed lives forever. She gets second best – at best.
I just dont want that for you. I want first best for you.
But, my controlling things is wrong even if unintentional. So, I let go of it all. If you want to play, go get on YEP and respond to folks. Shake the trees. Be diligent. There are avenues you really haven’t pursued with all of your heart. If it means enough to you, you will do it. It’s not for me to do.
I certainly will fix your websites for you because I know how – but at your leading. The rest of the stuff you need to do.
You are a man. And, you have what it takes. You really do. You are truly gifted to perform, write and play. You have the physical makeup. You have the ear. Not too many do. Its just walking it out now.
And, sometimes, that is someone that can only come by one’s self. Life is very much a journey. It takes fortitude. It takes character. It takes bumps, failures and experiences that help bring out the best in you.
Perhaps it is time for you to do just that – figure it out.
I love you dearly. I am on your side. No I dont always communicate the best. But, I try my best. My heart is for you. God’s is too.
I hope you make the right choices. I would encourage you to pray.
No matter what, I am proud to call you my son.
John Stein www.johnjstein.com(303) 590-5271
On Jan 29, 2019, at 8:30 AM, Jack Stein <jackjstein@gmail.com> wrote:I very much appreciate that you want to help. I know you care very much and have the desire to correct things to ensure I live out my best life.
What I need from you now is just support during tough times. I wish you would not escalate things to extreme hypothetical situations. Along with this, I do not need you to you take control of things, just support and suggestions. I am past the point of needed to be told what to do, or for you to intervene.
I understand you have experienced a great deal of negativity, but you cannot meet someone else’s negativity with anger or frustration. Disappointment and frustration are perfectly normal emotions and should be felt and addressed. It is not healthy to be willfully blind towards a situation or pretend it is better than it is.
This being said, I appreciate that you care but it is time for me to deal with this. I will pursue music but not without a backup plan. Feel free to send links but it is very important to me that you do not take action on my socials without my approval. When you do, you are speaking on my behalf to virtually everyone who knows me, please consider that. Thank you.
Love,
Jack