What is going on?

Had a good chat with my dad on the way back from Tifton. Our time with Jack was wonderful. It was a great time for all three of us boys. I love my son so much. He is such a great young man. I love watching him grow up. God, please show him Your goodness.

I asked my dad about Laura, and he thought that I should get a job and learn how to communicate to her in a way that keeps her from feeling judged. Well, yea. I agree completely.

But, that just gets me pissed.

I have tried to do exactly what God has asked every step of the way, and now I sit here feeling like the fruit in my life is zilcho. We have no money. I am miles apart with Laura. My weight is up. My ministry is down. Things suck.

Is this me? Is this God bringing a shift? Is it both. What is going on?

I dont know what to do. I see God in Georgia.com. He is all over it. Man, this is hard.

God, I pray for tons of wisdom.

I pray You bring me help in this ever-present time of trouble.

HELP!