My back hurts.I think it had a lot to do with disruption to ones daily biological routine. Never had this before.
I am still stressed over the job. The distraction spirit keeps taunting me. I hear it in others too. It’s like everyone is being distracted. I need grace. I really need grace and mercy.
I found out that my relationship and view of God is totally motivated by fearing punishment from Him. That’s a tough place to walk. I guess I screw up so much that I get disciplined a lot. If not, then I need to know that. I know that God is only good. He will provide. He will see me through as the perfector of my faith. But, I still walk around lookng at my actions and wondering if they are sufficient enough or am I going to get punished. That is not a father-son relationship, is it?
O LORD, I need to know Your love for me. I need to see some grace. I feel that I am striving. You said that I can do nothing without You. Dont I know it. Please help me here!
Help me see you as One who is not just a punisher, like a dog that has been beaten time and time again.
I fall on the Rock.