If this is a season of transition, it is also a season of great uncertainty. I have little or no fruit at work, yet I try with a good heart and diligent hands. I have a wife who will not talk with me and has extreme anger for me and a lack of trust in God. We are in a dark time together right now, yet I know that the LORD has His hand upon her and me.
I have a heart for my children. I love them so very much. I miss them and pray God for the day that I can be with them always.
I am pressing in for the seven-fold baptism of the Spirit of God. I ask for the anointing to come. I want more and more of Him – in every way. I am not satisfied with what I have.
There still feels an air of disobedience to getting Johnny and Elizabeth their whatever. I dont have the money for it, but I believe God told me to. I need to talk with them on it and probably will during the trip to Israel.
My fast is almost over. I know that the LORD has been moving. I actually saw a couple deals pop up. Yesterday, I had like 4 or 5 folks call me to encourage me all about the same time. Angie had a crazy bout with the devil and got sick. I prayed with her, and the attack left her.
I really dont know is going on with my life. I see nothing. But, I am in a good place. Some days are harder than others. I trust that God has my life in His hands and have made myself a living sacrifice. Whatever He does with me is fine.
I know that something big is going to happen in Israel. I just know it. It will be fun to be there. I pray for that anointing to come.
Jesus is King. I love You, Lord. Thank you for the trials, the ups, the downs, the joy – all of it. For, without it, I would not have come to know You.