The attacks against Laura and I have been quite profound in the last week. I had that hard discussion with Nate last Friday. I talked to Evan on Weds, and that left me wondering whether I have a job home at EVS. I thought that I have been doing a good work, but man, I get no positive feedback.
So, that caused Laura to trip a bit. She wanted to analyze me again and all of that.
I called her to prayer. I sensed the Spirit wanting to move. Well, I asked for encouragement. I asked that we e made one. As it turns out, while Laura and I were discussing all of this, Nate had called and left a voice message. He spoke about how I should have a smile and be encouraged. Deals were closing, things were happening. God is good. Dont look in the moment; see the whole picture.
It was a good word and an answer to a prayer that had yet to be prayed. Way cool, indeed.
Then I met with Cheryl Jackson, a lady that I met with at the Christian meetup. She had a word for me that the LORD is helping me to receive His love. This is a deeper dive into what was brought up a few years ago. I am going to read the Shack again. I believe that He wants to show me something.
Then, Edna and I met last night. She had gotten “pornography” a couple nights ago about me. And then yesterday, she asked what was going on at 9 yrs of age. I told her that I think that is when I discovered porn. Ha! The LORD uncovered a root. So, I took that to Him and got some lovin and forgiveness. Jesus cleaned me up.
Edna gave me the word that He is going to show me the Father heart of God. I need this revelation to love and be loved. LORD, I ask for it in a big way. Dont hold back. Dont let my fears stop me. Dont let the lies stop me. Dont let my lack of understanding stop me. Just do it! Bless God.