So, the LORD is really on me to make the change. I wait for Laura to decide whether we are going to CO or staying here. Once she decides, I will start looking for the job immediately with all that I have. I dont care what I do. My hopes is to do work that I would enjoy. But, I really want my family to be blessed. Enough is enough.
The LORD has used these last two years in a big way. He worked out selfish ambition, self righteousness, control, fear and my guess is that He increased my authority over Jezebel, witchcraft, death and all other kinds of nasty stuff from the kingdom of darkness. God worked out character in me. This is/was a refining period for certain, and it was most painful.
It is funny how Jordan is in Brazil, and Jack was in Il. Both went on cool trips. The day after I return, things started shifting for me. God is like, “it’s time to make something happen.” I really thought that I heard Him say, “I will take care of this, but you have to get off of your butt.” regarding paying for the trip and my Amex bill this month.
Did the LORD keep me from work so that He could work out my character? Or, did I choose the wrong path which caused all of this stuff to go wrong, and He is yelling at me to get in line?
I prefer to think that God had a plan to work out my character. That season is ending. Now, He is putting an urgency in me to surrender to Him through Laura. Once she gives me word, I will look for the job, and a new season will begin.