Laura and I met yesterday. It was bizarre. She wants the divorce. She says that I havent changed in a year. Yet, I know the LORD has done a great deal to change us both. I guess I just missed it completely. She wanted me to come over and spend time with the kids but not her. I wanted a family. She wanted me to move into a place over there. I stayed here hoping that I would be moving in with her again. The list goes on and on. We see it just so differently.
I told her about the prophetic words around our marriage. I know that she caught hope in it. She cannot connect the dots and neither can I. From the natural perspective, it looks hopeless. But, the word has been released. Even Abbey, last night, told me that she had just dreamed that I moved back in with Laura.
I will start the process of finding out how we do this. It sucks. I cried in the car.
When Laura and I said goodbye, I hugged her, and we just held each other. For a brief moment, there actually was love. I know that it is in us. Why we havent been able to live it out is beyond me.
There is much pain, but the LORD is good. He will heal us.