I met with Doug yesterday. He’s such a good guy.
I really have no idea where I go with that church.
He challenged me on the women. Guard my heart. I get that. He also said he would love to see one who can walk along side me. This shows you where i have spiritual conflict with someone like Jen (at least in my view). She’s a baby in all of the deep stuff. She has been putting subtle, pressure on me.
I love her dearly. She’s a great friend. I enjoy her friendship. But, I am not attracted to her. And, she’s not who God showed me in the dream. Martin’s last word about “just land here” comes to mind.
Maybe it’s applicable.
I really have to see the LORD in whomever He has.
I know what she looks liek in the dream – from behind. That’s the one! I am looking for that haircut. Why cant it be literal?
So, I have to guard things with Jen for her sake cause I dont want to hurt her.
A retirement community in Longmont reached out to me for a sales position. Is this God? Man, I dont know, but I do know things have to change. I responded to them. Direct me O LORD.
It just showed up.
I think of my dream here recently where I was running a race and a woman grabbed my hand. Is that Jen? Or is that someone else and Jen is the one I was originally chasing?
She is the only “woman” in my life. The warning is that this woman tried to hold me back.
God, help me guard my heart.
I believe that the woman could be a spirit. I am watching.