Hey you two,
I know that mama talked to you both about what is going on between us.
It has been a long, long road, and the devil has been at our marriage forever. To add to that, your mother and I see the world very, very differently. I dont think that she would argue that God is right in the middle of it all. Actually, I would say that our understanding of God is right in the middle of it. We have different perspectives, and that drives our decision making. When we see the world so differently, it makes it very hard to be in unity on much of anything. That causes great grief and sorrow and doesnt really make room for love. But, love overlooks the wrongs. We are both learning how to love better every day. Neither of us has mastered it quite yet.
You guys need to know that your mother and I love each other very much. And, we care for one another. We are both tired. We both want great things for each other. We dont really fight, and we are not angry.
And, we both are leaving room for God to do something big in our relationship. Personally, I believe that He will.
So, I encourage you two to not lose hope. All things are possible with the LORD. That doesn’t mean that this will end with us staying married. It may not. But, we can still keep seeking God on the matter.
Yes, we are on a straight line towards divorce. We have all seen big miracles though.
It is just important to know that I honor and love your mama very much. I dont want to be divorced. But, I do want her to be happy and to feel and know that she is loved, and I have failed miserably at doing that. Some wisdom is quite expensive.
We are not giving up without a fight. As you both know, we have spent more than a decade with lots of pain and sorrow but have stayed in this marriage. We have tried and tried and tried. We have had counseling. We have prayed. We have done so much. At this point, if God doesnt show up, we wont survive.
Does all of this make sense? Probably not. But, dont blame God. Trust in His goodness.
Keep praying. We both need it.
I will be talking to each of you this week about what’s going on. No matter what, good will come out of this.
And, marriage is a good thing. It is a God thing. And, it is something worth having and nurturing in your lives.
I love you. I bless you.
Daddy