Stress is apparent. I am unnerved by the lack of fruit at work. I am not sure how t take it. There hasnt been fruit in my sales since I converted. I am trying. Do I need to try harder? Is that striving? What about working unto the LORD? God, give me wisdom. I want to do a good job. I need grace.
Laura started rising up against Jerusalem. I knew it was coming. The first question out of her mouth was “how are you going to pay for it?” You know? The LORD will provide! So, a few minutes later, she says that she is against it. I called Cathy Hemminger and asked her what she thought. I know that Laura and I are one. I want to make the right decision. I dont want to disobey like I did earlier last year by not listening to God. But then again, I was slow on selling the wrangler. I take authority over the spirit of confusion and say NO to you. LORD, give me wisdom. I need grace.
My plan is to go. It was so clear that God directed me to this. I just know in my spirit that something is going to happen there. I am prophesying that Laura will come with me. LORD, change her heart and bring her! I decree and declare it to be so in the NAME of JESUS! Amen
I started on fruit last night. So, I went almost 4 entire days without food. Now, I am reading Brother Nicholas, and this dude went 20 years without food or drink, so my 4 days is nothing. But, it what I have. I will drink my smoothies (fruit, apple juice, ice and protein powder) for the remainder of the fast unless God shifts it to something else.
Boy, is something up. There is little peace or rest.
Oh, and Cathy confirmed what Stephene said at Daystar the other night. I have the personality to speak the hard stuff into people and that there is a special call on me. You know, you just want to know that the life you are led through makes a difference and matters. Sometimes, you just question is it worth it all? There has been so much adversity. Every day, there is something new. But, the LORD is good. He is faithful. I praise HIM. I bless HIM. I thank HIM.
It certainly is worth it. To whom else shall we go?