The time at the cabin was awesome. I have some fear in me on what ministry means. I am taking courage.
I havent told Laura. She doesnt honor much of anything God tells me. I will text it to her.
I also feel anger towards her. Faye texted me yesterday that she isnt my enemy. I feel that she is not my ally either. I hate the devil. I have never felt so trapped by anyone who loved me less. I n her heart, I am sure she does love me. It just has not been experiential. I am sure that she feels the same towards me. It’s too bad.
My body is feeling the fast. I have lots of aches and yetserday, I was hungry. I had an extra piece of pita Jesus @ communion.