So, I have been bummed out about Laura. Her heart is still brick hard towards me. She wont accept anything from me. In fact, she wants to argue most any point that I mention. This is reminicent of our life together before we split.
Last night, right before bed, my dad and I were talking. He said that mom had “thoughts” on us and what I was to do. I had shared with her that I really dont care if I am married with Laura. There is just so much pain that she causes me.
Mom:
1) Give Laura room. Dont try to get this all fixed.
2) Dont be overbearing.
3) Be patient.
I dont know what it looks like to give her room in many ways. The one that comes to mind is in dealing with decisions that must be made now. God is the center of me. I look at it all through His lens, or try to at least. She has a practical view. I am sure that it is critically important to factor that in. But, the two worlds collide, and we have conflict. How do we mediate that? Lord, help me.
This is quite painful.
I ask if I am supposed to be out of this marriage. It looks like He has provided the answer. Bless God.
I shall stay and fight for her another day. But, I need the grace to do so. Jesus?