I saw Steve Hale the other day. He is a wonderful man. I told him all that was going on.
I really feel that “diligence” is the word that God is speaking over me. Laura and I have been distant these last days since I got back. She lost her cool completely. I know that there is truth in her words on me providing for the family. At the same time, God has led me every step. This is oh so hard. The desert sucks.
God throws you into the wilderness and says, “survive”. Ha.
In all my existence, I believe that I have done what He has asked for the most part. Wow. How did I end up here? There are a million things you can think of and accusations that the devil wants to throw. But, I am going to just press deeper into Him. I want deliverance from evil.
Jordan has been manifesting pain in her head and back. The rash wants to show up and disappear. Crazy.
Steve said that two ladies at Bethel saw something on me. They said that I needed prayer before Jordan did. This has me alarmed. I dont know what they saw, but I want it gone. Steve is looking into a sozo round two for me. LORD, deliver me from this evil.
I have a phone interview today with Master Meter. I cold called them for the Colorado territory. It just so happens that they just fired the guy who handles that territory. Funny. I wonder if this is the LORD’s work.
God be with me. And, LORD, please be present. Change me into You. I dont care the cost, but I hate paying the price.
Grace a thousand times. Mercy even more.
I am hopeless without my Daddy.