I got an email from Chuck Breath yesterday. He wants to meet with me every day to help work on my deals. He says that I must close something in a hurry. Go figure. As I think back on this job, I know that I have put my heart into it. I know that the fear of man has been broken off, and I am trying hard. There has been no sales. So, LORD, what does this mean? Do I need to try harder? Am I not trying my hardest or giving my best? Please tell me. What is going on!Laura and I talked a bit last night as we were getting ready to go to sleep. She really is afraid of living her life with someone who is full of selfish ambition. She sees it in my dad and projects it on me. Now, is this from God? Oh, LORD, I must know. I dont want that. I want to give my life. I have to lose it to gain it. This I know. Let me know, Father. Is this Laura being afraid of the past and projecting it to now or is this from You?
