Things are super hard. I just dont know what to do, but I know that I am supposed to do something.
I met with Randy yesterday. We went over my business a bit, and he had great ideas for me. When I shared a God story, he immediately said that I had passion around that. He got the I was looking into the work thing for food, but I had real energy when I talked about God. Well, yea. But, it is my heart’s desire to do ministry. I dont have a passion for my “work”, but I try my best to do it for the LORD.
Randy also thought that I needed a partner. I had that thought too recently. I am wondering if it is from the LORD.
I would like a partner who moves in the “stuff”. That would be exciting. God, I pray for such a person.
Then, I get derailed bacause I dont know if the LORD will have me doing this for long. “Soon”, “Just a little more” and “Get ready” are all words over me now. Yea, but what? Those words can distract you and get you going sooner than you should. Waiting on the LORD is so very difficult.
The times are hard right now.
But God…