Things are just so hard. I have no clue as to what to do. Laura and I got into a fight yesterday over London. It’s great to have been invited to go there. And, I am most confident that it is of the LORD. But, Laura wanted to squash it. “It would be fun.” Yea, it would. God is about fun…
So, that blows.
Work is hard too. I have been working on my strategic plan and having some good meetings and thoughts. I have a couple new prospect meetings coming up soon. That is great. But, I met with Bill Stark yesterday, and that discussion had me off on a tangent of starting to do ministry work. Ah, that is my heart. It really is NOT business. But, God has not said, “go”. LORD, send me.
I know where my heart is. I hope that there is not fear for me so that it keeps me from stepping out. But, I also want to make sure to do things in His way and timing. God just hasnt said…
So, there is tension all over the place. I want Laura to have her home. I want to do the things that God wants me to do.
I want to be done with the fire. I know that it is important, and I dont want to rush it. But, I am tired.
I dont want to be lazy. I want to be excellent.
LORD, I need help. Please.