Life is hard right now.
I went to Bethel yesterday and hadnt realized how worn out I was. God has made me strong and a warrior. I am battle weary, it would appear.
Several men prayed for me, and it was good. The Presence of God was strong there. It was good.
At home, I need God. I am working to make sure that I release words of life in this house.
I dont know what to do.
I listen to the talk of Laura and Jordan, and it needs to change. There is a worldly sound that needs to go away.
Words of life need to be spoken.
For now, I mostly retreat to the bedroom and read or watch my computer. That just doesnt seem like the way God intended it. I dont want to be Ahab. The fruit of the Spirit isnt very evident here. I am the leader of this house. How do I lead? How does one lead rebellion?
I am asking the LORD to help me here. I start a five-day fast tomorrow night leading up to Pentacost. Man, I would like the LORD to show up. I hope that He is teaching me something. I feel the distance growing, and it needs and will shrink. But, God needs to show up.
I had a vision this morning. I was standing next to a snake hole, and a zillion snakes just kept coming out of the hole attacking me. I was trying to cut them with my sword, but they kept coming so fast. Then, this big one came out and attacked me. I cut its neck, but it was a small slice. It then swallowed me whole. Then, I saw Jesus riding an atom bomb towards the snakes. In one big whooooosh, He exploded the bomb on top of all of the snakes, and they were all killed.
I just wonder if this attack isnt a ploy by Him to get them ALL out into the open so that He can destroy them once and for all.
I pray God that you do just that.
Enough of the bondage. Enough Jezebel. Enough satan. Enough.
Serpents and scorpions – they shall not harm me. I have the authority – not them. Thus saith the LORD.