Laura and I need oxygen. I need a wife who loves me. All that I have ever tried to do is obey the LORD. She has moved further and further away because of it. I am having lots of thoughts of divorce. No, I dont want to do it. Yes, I think about it a lot. God needs to come in and do some work. I finished the Two fleas and No Dog book by Craig Hill. It was perfect for us. Will Laura read it? Will she try to get help? I pray God to move her heart to do it.
I hate deception and do not think that God’s provision comes through it. I even had to retype my thoughts. Suck on that one.
My oil is a drip right now. There are no healings. I see very little. I hear virtually nothing. I think that I got a word of knowledge a couple days ago, but it’s been so long that I either didnt want to do it or didnt believe that it was a word.
Need money.
My car is messed up. The front end that was fixed is now doing its thing again. The service manager from Chrysler told me that it was because the car was lifted. Well, I asked, why did it go 65k miles with no issue and then it messed up and then I got it fixed and then it messed up right after that? He didnt know but didnt want to do anything about it. Is God bringing me a new car?
This walk is hard. Very hard.
God, please show up. Jesus, I need You. Holy Spirit?!!! Where are You?