Wow. This week has been hard. What is going on? Is it the LORD? The devil?
I spoke with Laura. She questions elevate29 and has all of the reasons why the past…why it’s me, etc. And, it wants to put a cloud of doubt on everything. I spoke with Faye at length. She gave me hope. Keep going and be on guard for God to bring a full-time gig. That is fine with me. I am good with that. Why does Laura need perfection in the walk? Ha. How much do we trust Him?
God I trust You with my life and with what I am going through. Thanks for taking care of this.
Here is what I sent to Laura. I am going to walk this out each step trusting the LORD to take care of all of it.
Hey hon,
I have decided that I am not going to stop elevate29 or slow it down. I believe that it is what God has me doing right now. I believe that I processed it appropriately and see the LORD in it. I got my first client inside of 4 weeks, and I have my first ever pipeline of stuff working plus two guys who want to work for me – all in just over a month. That is a very different scenario to back in ATL. Things are moving and happening.
Yes, we did have a plan. I believe that the LORD made His own adjustment to it. However, I am praying for God to bring that company through this work or networking or whatever if there is a different direction for me to take. I am quite ok with the idea of working for a company or anything else that He wants. I am going to keep my eyes open for a full-time gig and keep processing because of what you have brought up a couple of times now. So, hear me when I say that I am listening to you.
God can change the path. And, I am asking Him every day to lead me. Either He is incapable of so doing, or I am going into the open doors that He has for me right now. I listen to you very carefully. And, I appreciate your counsel.
Please pray that I go where He wants. And, trust Him to get me there. Do you think that He cant just bring a company to me? It’s not a big deal for Him. We are not outside of His will.
I will continue to take your words to heart and continue to pray about it and process through it. I am not discounting what you said at all. But, I also dont think that we want to lose momentum at the same time. That would be damaging to us both.
At a minimum, this is allowing me audience with company’s like Kevin’s that I would not have otherwise met. And, if God wants me working there, He is quite capable of letting both Kevin and I (and you) know it – or any other company that I come across for that matter.
In terms of “my way” of communicating or “doing it myself”, that is not what is happening. I am getting back into that place of submission to the Word of the LORD. God has a mechanism for processing what He says and staying accountable and humble. I am in line with both of those. You are at the very forefront of my processing – the very forefront. You are the most important voice on the planet. The wife is the key. That is what causes me such alarm when we dont see it the same way. And, I am called to lead our family and am accountable to God for that. And, that is what I am going to do. I will listen to you. I will listen to you carefully. And, once I get what I believe to be the Word of God, I am going to make a decision as the one called to lead and anointed by God to do so. I can only act for myself. You can do whatever you desire. It is your choice. You are responsible for your own self. I expect that we will be in unity. But, I know that there are times when that might not be the case. Grace will cover us no matter what.
This will end up just fine. If it is a full-time gig, God will get me there. If it is elevate29, God will keep me there. He is quite capable of answering the prayer, “Your will be done.” I dont know what else to pray in this matter.
Walking by the Spirit.
I love you.
