Prayer over Incorrigible

I am at a place of no understanding. This is not confusion. This is lack.

At issue:

1) Did I blow it with the wine this past Saturday? The LORD had warned me during my last fast. Well, I drank too much Saturday.

2) Is this for God’s glory? Is this just for Him to raise something from the dead to get the glory?

I know all the words that I have gotten. I know the miracles. Man, I just dont get it.

For now, I dont know what to do. Do I surrender the house? Do I keep the faith because of the prophecies? But, what about Saturday?

I need wisdom and revelation.