Things are happening. It’s kinda hard to grasp it all. Have seen the entire family mad at me a lot. I am the common thread. Hmmm.
The things of God create issues. They also give a platform for division.
Jordan has been battling the headaches. I feel them in my own head and war against it. I believe it to be a spiritual matter not a physical one. I brought it to Laura’s attention, and she didnt quite receive it like I thought she would. Maybe, I need to work on my presentation.
Anyway, it occurred to me that the deeper things of God like warfare, destiny, power of God, hearing God, healings, etc. cause Laura and Jack and even Jordan to stumble. They dont want to talk about these things. Somtimes, Jordan isnt on board but others she is. It doesnt offend her as much.
I am wondering if I am talking about mature matters to immature Christians. You cant give meat to breast feeding babies. Paul talked about it, and what comes to mind is that he talked to them like babes. He didnt get mad cause they werent mature. He didnt try to convince them or even make them mature. It was on him to communicate to them where they were. I need to do the same, me thinks.
Andy has been doing a series on love, sex and dating. It’s been good so far. Yesterday, they talked about sex. I wish that someone had told me a long time ago what Andy talked about yesterday. Sex is more than physical and does track with you.
At the end, I felt the presence of the LORD on me. I started crying. He was doing something to me. When it ended, I had a strong measure of electricity/His presence all around me. I think that He was restoring or redeeming me of all that sexual sin in my past. I hope so. I dont know all what He was doing, but there was something big going on.
I have often wrestled with thoughts of, “I wish that I never…” for a long time and often wondered what still lingered. I dont feel taht now and some of those haunting memories have no effect when I bring them up. Bless the LORD. He heals even stuff that requires no action from us. He just showed up.
I know that I have prayed for forgiveness and asked for freedom. So, here it is. You just cannot have sexual issues of any sort – even bad memories when you lay hands on people for healing. I dont want to try to pray for a broken bone to mend and war against lustful thoughts at the same time.
We shall see the extent of what He has done soon enough – I am certain. Thanks, LORD!
17 keeps coming up. 11 too. Want all 17 and no more 11. Let the transition end and perfection be made complete.