When we wander in the dark, it can be oh so difficult to work through each day. I am still trying to process how much of our past 11 years was the LORD vs. the devil.
I believe that all of it is from the hand of the LORD. Some of it is simply the legality of the situation being able to come into motion – iniquity, for example.
But, I believe that the LORD permits that which makes for most effective shaping of His people. God, give me wisdom here, please. Give me understanding.
I now see all of the prophetic words that I got over these years. I started getting offended at them because of how few actually came to pass. I know that the LORD was speaking to me and over me, but where was the fruit?
Well, I am now understanding that those words were designed to keep me in the game. Those were the very promises of what the LORD was to do in my life. All I had to do was believe Him. This is faith. The rest is His game. He watches over His word. We dont have to. We hold onto His word because when life falls apart, it is all that we have to hold onto. God told me that I would have John the Revelator’s anointing, and I will. I didnt understand that I would need to know that when the lights went out. I couldnt see the connection. The word was to give me hope. It was my anchor for the dark days when I could hear and see nothing.
So, He continues to heal my heart, and I continue to learn more about His ways and who He is. It really is amazing how He sets the stage for our lives so that we can walk it all out. We just have to trust Him as our perfect father.