Yesterday was a big day.
I prayed to God. I asked for help with my unforgiveness to Laura (and Jordan) but mostly Laura. I sent out an email in the am to the psose asking for their prayers.
I got a call yesterday afternoon while we were at Jack’s shooting practice. It was the sheriff. Jordan and James were caught making out (read bigger than that) at a park. Jordan told us that she was going to have coffee with some friends, from small group. she lied. Well, I had to drive home to this bomb. I spoke with Jordan while the sheriff had her. I asked him to put her in custody, but he wouldnt. So, I told her to go right home.
Laura and J spoke before I got home.
Laura and I spoke when I got home. I was so mad. I was mad at Laura. And, I let her know. I gave her both barrels. She said that we were over. I said I wouldnt stop her. I was ready to be done with her. Hatred was a good word to describe my emotions.
So, we talked to Jordan, and it was a good talk. We got to some things that happened in the past, and I was able to apologize for it. I explained parenting out of fear vs. the way we are now.
The result was good. I think that these events surfaced to bring more healing to Jordan and to get rid of the anger and unforgiveness that I was holding. When the night was over, my anger was gone. Unforgiveness too.
God answered my prayer. He knew what was going to happen yesterday. He brought good from it. It’s amazing to watch Him work.