He texted this to me today.
Church was all about walking in courage, taking courage, etc. Stop disobeying God. Fear the LORD not man.
Give me grace, LORD.
I am sorry and repent of that fear of man.
From John:
It may feel that you are going round and round and ever ending at the same place. But I see you in a coil like a still and each time you circle you are higher and higher and purer and purer. You gifts are more and more powerful in Christ. The top end of the still coil is very very soon. You are about to explode out of the coil and you will never be the same. All things that seems to have been with held from you are about to be poured upon you and your family with increase that you can not dream or imagine.